It ain't pretty being easy... (soopageek) wrote,
It ain't pretty being easy...
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ok... my ex-girlfriend and i had sex... the last 4 months of our relationship was non-sexual (all her)... then after we break up she wants to have sex.... not that i'm complaining... it just makes things weird i guess... i probably need to start dating again and dissolve that aspect of our current relationship... it's to easy to ignore the things that went wrong in a previous relationship when yer lonely... it's so easy to fall back into it... and it becomes a cycle...

problem is i hate dating... all the awkwardness and feeling each other out and small talk and posturing... sometimes i wish all the negative trappings of dating could be alleviated... i mean, bottom-line it's intially about raw attraction, whether physical or soemthing more aesthetic, but usualy a combination of both.... it'd be so nice if i could walk up to a person i'm attracted to and say "wow you do somethin' to me... can i get to know you?"... without fears of rejection, without sending out big huge blips on her "stalker" radar, without spending days and weeks just getting up the enrve to do it.... maybe i'm just too shy...

but at the same time, im almost sold on the idea of not being in any more relationships... i'm so conflicted over this...

i've been working WAY to fuggin' much lately... 12 days straight... i'm supposed to be off tomorrow (but i was suppose dto off all weekend too..) i hope it stays this way... i really need a break... i'm getting burned out and cranky.... and i don't wanna get that way... i generally like my job and it seems very promising for my future... thres a good chance i might relocate to cincinnati in the coming year... which wuld be great... i could have the dual benefit of being in a larger city and still be really close to my kids....

i didn't realize Turbonegro was so good... i shoulda gotten some of their music sooner

i shoulda discovered the Small Faces years ago....
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