speaking of consensual sex… I've been debating on whether or not to go to the PWP again this year…. on the one hand… it was kinda fun… but on the other hand… I didn't really connect with anyone last year… just like most all other social situations, I always feel like I'm the odd one…. well I know I'm the odd one, I just don't like feeling like it J… maybe I'll leave it up to chance… if I'm home that weekend, I'll go, but if I get a chance t run west, I'm not turning it down…. I should make it home this weekend, and I'm definitely gonna make it home next wekeend for the ourt date and the big Matrix shindig, so after that, I'mg onna ask to go west… if I do, good, if not, then I'll got o PWP…. but I think I'm supposed to RSVP… ? minor detail…. I'm sure no one will mind if I don't rsvp… I should probably make check the mailing list tough and make sure it's still gonna be in the same place…..
on being the odd one: not that I don't appreciate the good friends I have… ilove them all dearly: robin, dwayne, stephanie, carlla, amybeth, kevin…. but I wish I had that one person who I just clicked with…. the person who got me I got them…. and of course if that person would a woman that'd be great cos then I'd have found the mythical soulmate… heh… but seriosuly, just someone…. I've given some thought to re-approaching the personals thingies… but not so much to find potential cuddle buddies, but to find a good friend… someone who shares my interests, sense of humour, passions… especially music…. what would be great would be someone who I shared a large core, but we had differences too that we could expose each other too…. that was the problem with both susan and robin (and most anybody for that matter)… finding someone who shares that passion like I do is tough…. in fact… I've never found that person…. it sucks…. I've had lots of good friends…. I've had different best friends at different times of my lives…. but I've never really had that one really special friend that just gets me on every level…. probably never will…. I need my silent bob ;-)